morning~ only me n gonggong makan ja~ we go 33... then i go coll lo~ as usual~ bad reference[some i dun even know y is there XDD], bad compo n bad grid n bad everything~ next week 10 new sketches~ u.u gambateh ba~ so many things to do... haiz~ haven compile journal oso! T.T so many journal oso! chm ~ oh well~ after calli we go it n operation department~ LOL they dun giv us slip! WT~~~ lol apa bu ke yi ~ i tot hes sayin book oredi LOL XDDDD so difficult for me n cheryl to und ... hahah then suddenly out of nowhere~ REDZUAN knock n come in oso n THE GAME! swt! -.- lost it.. swt betul! hahahah then we go makan at vegetarian shop~ ^^ n i bought a honey aloe vera bac XD n now in my room,~ i totally forgot bout it! XD tmr morning frink ba~ then i went home after lunch~ i sleeep from 2pm ++ till 7.30pm ! CHUN SHIT! now still tired~ duno y~ did some research n only one sketch drawing of the 3 point view of my dnosaurs n cave ppl havi a modern tea party~ XDDDDDD nice! but messy~ hyper messy now~ i imagine it to b nice in the end la~ but.... who knows wat happen in the end~ im not up to standad yet T.T oh well!!!! HAVE FAITH!!!! hehehehe oya! today oso got the bazaar....but rellli er... speechless~ im thinking tat the bazaar at our secondary school is so much better~ their poster oso not very nice~ sorta dissapointed since im expecting something n wanna learn somehting de~ haiz~ well~ nighty!!!!!! oya! hope i rmb to take joelle's pic tmr XDDD!
***today's special: just now only i tot of writing something n now i totally forgotten bout it! short term memory lost! SAD!!!! oya~ this is a true story of me~ form 4... every prefect is given a task~ to be incharge of something so tat they can decide who to be the leader next time~ well...im incharge of games~ imma game leader~ my games was rejected few~ left only one~ im suppose to think of somthing else ... mana tau in the very end those performance end early n my game is not enough to cover~ i feeeeel very dissapointed... imma ppl tat helps out everybody but myself~ im not gooood~ during the next meeting, my senior says shes dissapointed, my group members complain in front of everyone~ tat the idea of makin card sucks~ noone else complain except my group member~ the card is my idea~ i ask them to do including myself~ i ask them if they hav any idea? they say no~ i ask them if doin card is ok? they say ok~ i told them if anything just tell me la~ im da only group leader tat dun scold members~ n less members~ but.. its oso the saddest one~ everyone is happy with their success except me~ evryone is happy but i was crying in tat meeting~ they keep repeating the same complain bout me~ i couldnt tahan~ so i cry~ ppl might think tat i did wrong liao cry summore~ so ISH! right? esspecially my senior gua~ i heard them saying tat they r satisfied at everything except game~ though in front of me, they say it was good n they enjoy~ its all fake~ u,u i experience the failure tat is same as the working life~ REALITY ... i wont hav confidence anymore~ since then... i think everything i do become more nervous~ everything i time it~ everything i calculate~ everything i show more~ but wat can i think of the scar there? the past~ is past~ wats new is future~ i think i did worst in that gathering... but becoming a ketua kebajikan? was tat a right choice? summore bad memory~ sad life... i wanna go into fantasy world... it seem perfect...but is it reality too?***
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