visit orhanage day---

sorry...but its no longer today! its now yesterday~ haiz~ i 4gotten bout blogggin! XDDD

so heres a pic of ice cream cakey!!! XDD i made it myself..deco i suppose~not make the whole thing from 0 la~

when i came downstairs~ WALA! gongong deco the house XD nicey~ hes an artist himself too~ he knows how to tell the differenciaton~ unlike well~~ some ppl just say nice n not nice with no reason! but wat i need is AVANT GARDE! XDDDD jokin jokin lol! i mean no longer nice for nice sake, has internal interpretation~ wooo~ since when i talk like this swt!

after tat, i go coll~yup on sunday! haiz~gotta go to orphanage n deco the place for CNY n clean~i din do the cleanin job but only do deco~ LOL! n u tot deco is the easiest one? think again! XDDD while some r working hard...the others were....er hm.... special thnx to reirei tat keep my scissors!!!!

yup! theres 3 dogs there too!!

a pic of thomas playin on the spoiled rocky chair, the kid says its spoiled but he say rock faster~ LOL~

in the end... 'she' still calls me mother..swt! the orphan~ no matter how i teach her the difference they wont und!but i found out tat theres a kid studyin at TOA! so rich!!!! -.-''

we do n do n do until 6pm!!!! lol~ coz i reach there at 10.50am n wait till 11.15 like tat then got 2 ppl reach n go lunch together, then cherry reach at 11.30 n eat with us~ tat kit sms say 11... LOL! i relli tot 11~ swt~ next time 11 only start to go out XDD wa...the lrg so empty n lonely -.-'' well... SzeK summore scared late n take taxi! so weida! XDD but unlike some ppl~ tryin to come [like as if but oso they came] late! like we wit till 1pm! then only all come...haiz~ -.-'' why we always like tat? i dun blame only at person but everyone of us hav to take the blame coz cooperation doesnt work out if 1 dun care! so...all oso .... can b improve summore~ T.T tats y until 6 lo~ haiz~ 1.30 only reach~

after tat they wanna eat YTF n my grandparents oredi cook la! thank god thenesh say its far then we go bac sunway n i can join them T.T sobby~~ well...my fault la so wat~

it stopped rainin actually when i took this pic in MC car

at night...i fin all my CNY for my fam members! card~ XDDD ^^ hope they can feel my sincerity! XDDD although my work is not tat beautiful...but it relli came out from my heart n the poem is created by me ~ so i wish they would love it n appreciate it U.U hope the dun treat it as a normal card like a trash~ LOL!

today's special : er.... hm.... wat should i say? hm... i think my life is control by sitution, other ppl n anything else but not me... sometimes i ask y am i living? im afraidof death now, but y? im not brave! n sometime i hav to act to please other ppl, such as act like as if im very scared of blood, shiver when see blood n scared of things where normal ppl feel scared so tat i dun need to enter science course..but now im lazy lol~ but y? y cant i just say no? i duno how to reject~ in a normal way~ why? too scared to hurt ppl's feeling? y i un live my life own way? why do u control me? everything in my life im controlled! except for anime~ lol~ but still bein controlled! -.-'' why? when i was 6, i wish to b 12, when i was 12, i wish to b 15, when i was 15 i wish to be 18 n now when im 18 i wish to et to 21 faster! LOL!!! why? i drag i myself! coz now im still bein controlled! i dun feel myself existing the way i want! if this continue, iside my heart oredi is grumpy, but still hav to control the emotion~ cant hurt other ppl~ coz i knoe how it feels? i let ppl hurt me~ THIS IS THE SWTEST THING!!! every time i say no more mrs good gurl~ but i still get controlled~ -.- i tot mayb a lil older i would b a lil free? but instead im still not~ jealous at ppl dun take me anywhere but im still jealous... if u watched sugar sugar rune im like the character baleila~ except tat i dun cry like her la~ n stronger ~ but... now i link one more thing to anime~ their character sometimes reflects me~ i felt like them~ tats y~ if theres one person out there tat im lookin for, i hope soon u appear~ i dunwan to end up in peter pan syndrom~ i dunwan to burst~ i dunwan to loose myself... as i cry, who's name can i yell for? who can i talk to ? always listen to me n calm me down beside myself? ***